Thursday, November 22, 2012
Before I would use this information just to come up with a new fantasy to masturbate with. Of course almost all the fantasies would include my wife being the woman in the fantasy. I would hope that in some way that chastity would spark a fetish side of my wife getting her interested into more fetish ideas.
Of course I knew this was also a fantasy. My wife doesn't have a fetish bone in her body, and any fantasies she has I wouldn't know of. But my interest in porn now comes to the idea of how I might make her orgasm stronger and to allow her to relax and enjoy the orgasm more.
I have been able to come to the understand that my "Fantasies" will always be "fantasies" and nothing more with my wife. There might be a small change with my relationship with my wife over the years to come but think that also, the fantasies should stay fantasies.
Not being able to masturbate causes me to not get worked up over fantasies and try to bring them into our bedroom.
One of my new "porn" pictures I love is the one above. Something is so erotic now of being completely naked, wife completely dressed having a orgasm and then just rolling off to do as she wants as I am left in chastity and feeling like a "toy" she uses when needed.
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
I would use this thought to masturbate to. I would think of things like being locked away and taken with a strap-on, cuckolding, being my wife's high heel maid cleaning the house while all locked away. This fantasies would quickly take care of my sexual build up. Each time I would grow on the fantasies because the thoughts would get old if I thought of the same thing each time.
So, when my fantasy of chastity and reality of being in chastity met, it wasn't the same as the fantasy. Did I expect it to be, no. But I also found that my mental being was different than what I thought it would be in chastity.
I thought I would be all worked up every day, wanting out as much as I wanted to orgasm. I thought that I would not be able to get the chastity out of my mind, that I would do anything to get a reward to get out. That also didn't happen.
However, what has changed and I do feel for the better is my attention to my wife's needs. Now this isn't a 100% better attention but my attention is more focused on her. I am more willing to help around the house and when she is in need. Not to hope to get out of my device. It is because I notice she needs the assistance and I want to.
Before I would do things for her but I really did expect some kind of reward. Now I just do it, I also really, really do enjoy just giving her a orgasm with no worries about mine. It has began to be very erotic to me where my sexual energy is getting very high too now.
But the simple fact, fantasy and reality never really match. Do I think things might go more in one way or another, time will tell. I do know that I am happy wearing the device. I believe that my wife likes the changes in my attitude and attention toward her. I do think that neither of us would want to go back to me not wearing the chastity device.
I never thought I would actually find a device I could wear 24/7 365 if needed. This one I can, and will have to see a year from now where things are......
Friday, November 16, 2012
I am going to change the theme of my blog to a more "open thoughts" of mine in general related to chastity and open up to the suggestions of comments if liked and go from there.
I know there are many out there searching to find the right device and the right way to introduce the idea to their partners. I feel I have more of a vanilla way of introducing and also know way too much about way too many devices.. LOL
Soon a new post will come, comments are welcome.
Friday, November 9, 2012
Mentally up to this point, it was about wearing the device, I find now a new side that is the true feeling I do not have control over my orgasm. This is a point many have spoke about that changes the chastity aspect and allows me to really feel the full effects of the chastity, submission and devotion I have given up.
I do believe that if I could take all the years, before with the roller coaster of sexual interest and throw them out, I would and step back with this device. I would be willing it wear it from then to now, without being out, just to not have you go through the discomfort of the interest I brought you.
Physically and mentally, day to day, this does not change me in any way, nor does it for our family, our interaction within the normal world. Just under the sheets, I am really controlled by you and I love that feeling, as much as I love you. The submission and devotion is a complete aspect of my feelings to you and all this is doing is drawing me close to you than ever, and putting your feelings in front of mine even more.
Monday, November 5, 2012
Sunday, November 4, 2012
I am very happy to know that you felt comfortable doing that and hope you will feel comfortable doing it again if needed. Like I said before, I want you to have control and feel comfortable with it. Also this will allow me to learn not to be a ass.
We had the the 4 week roll that put me at Nov 29th. Since I was a ass and deserve what you gave me the next roll will be Dec 13th if everything physical and normal life allows us to have "date night".
Thank you for being my wife, lover, soul mate and keyholder.
Saturday, November 3, 2012
I was discussing the other day on the forums and started thinking it was 2001 when I first got the CB2000 and first device. It has been 11 years and only a few months ago did the stars and planets aline and the device be so perfect for "real wear".
My excitement has been high because how well things are going. Now that we have found a way to determine time and type of release, I have hoped that any stress has been removed for you. I also find that before I had not stipulation to the idea of chastity so my mind would wander to all sort of thoughts. With this, I have found a peace and comfort in my position.
I have always wanted to give more to you than just my heart, and love. With this I give you all I can and even tho it may not mean anything to you, I love wearing my necklace with my pendant. It is a symbol to me of my devotion and submission of my self to you in more ways than anyone could guess.
I do believe that as time goes by my excitement will relax and I will just enjoy my position as we find our way.
Friday, November 2, 2012
After looking over the rules, I have adjusted the rules to suit us best.
· After 28-30 days (4 week / Date night minimum) the game can be played after “date night is over”. If personal or physical issues come up the game will be played on the next available date night. All “release” rolls will be played out on NEXT available “Date Night”.
· One roll of dice by You.
· ROLL 12 = “Denied” for 4 more weeks.
· ROLL 10 = “Release – vibrator, free air orgasm” – when orgasm begins - all stimulation is stopped and removed.
· ROLL 8 = “Release – intercourse”
ROLL 6 = “Release – Outfit/Permission required intercourse” (outfit – aka. heels and/or leather gloves) Must ask permission for orgasm, possible outfit when more comfortable.
· ROLL 4 = “Release – vibrator, masturbation, intercourse” (Your Choice).
· ROLL 2 = “Your Choice, or Re-roll of dice” (if re-roll & denied - double time)
· ROLL any other Number = “Denied” for 2 more weeks or “Date Nights”.