Friday, February 15, 2013
How the mind shifts quickly.
Over the period of time I have been "free" I found myself not actually interested in getting online and reading or posting. I would be more wrapped up in taking any free time and using that to come up with fantasies and masturbate. During this time I found myself as usual, not as interested in sex because I could easily get my pleasure with a few minutes alone.
Switch to now and I find myself wanting to find ways to get my wife to let me please her sexually so that I can her her orgasm. I know she would not let me out for any sex during this time nor would I want too.
This really shows that my need to have control over my sexuality not only makes me more aware of my wife's needs but also has me wanting to fill her needs as I can.
I think at times that I would love to open up and tell her to make it a "year in chastity" but I also fear that as much as I want it......